Random Shit 4 Random Fucks

Have you ever felt, at the end of a “long” relationship, like you knew from the beginning what would go wrong ? Feeling inevitably going along with the question : How the fuck could I stay in that shit for so long without jumping out a window ? I’m sure everybody had that. As a matter of fact, I think it’s fair to say that most of my ex-girlfriends have that feeling. One can stay for yeaaaaars in such a relationship, being unhappy BeCause of the very relationship.

BeCause there was someone in your life, who was influencing your life in a way that you moraly, or esthetically, or practicaly, or ethically, or sexually disapproved with… But it took you months, or even years to finally get the guts to get out of a “sometimes” difficult relationship. THE GUTS ! The courage. To tell that person that you are unhappy and would like to give up on this relationship, whatever it takes. Well, if it takes courage to do so. Then the answer to the question -why would one stay in such a relationship ?- is simple : Cowardness.

Haven’t you ever experienced that revelation ? That moment you were sure, 100% that this person was not going to be THE ONE and decided to break up. Or to remember a detail from long ago in the beginning of the relationship and saying to yourself : “I knew this was weird from the beginning, what took me so long ?” - Cowardness.

Some would argue : “It’s love, it makes you stupid”. It’s not. Love doesn’t make you stupid, love makes you do nice things toward people you love, so they do nice things to you in return “Scratch my back, I’ll scratch yours”. And if your patner beats you down, for exemple, and then tells you he loves you, then he’s a sociopath and you should run away end of discussion. Who disagree ? Why would one stay with a violent partner if it’s not cowardness ?

cowardness is the absence of courage, and if courage is what it takes to make a change and you lack of it, then you’re coward. But relax, we are all cowards. I’m a coward too. I never had a partner who was beating me, but I’ve been in that position too. Only my fear was about something else than getting beaten down… I don’t despise cowardness. It’s just something that’s in us. The fear of change. Maybe ?

We are cowards in many domains, in every domains, sentimentaly, professionaly, socialy. We prefer to tell ourselves that we will get used to things, that’s how things are, as long as we’re comfortable, as long as you are not alone, as long as you are entertained. We prefer to shut the fuck up to loser fucking bosses, as smart as a dead shrimp and who has a life probably even shittier than ours, than to look for another job. We prefer to stay with that stupid boyfriend who doesn’t fuck us anymore but who would fuck anyone else, than to be “alone”. We’ll take all sorts of humiliations and frustrations before we realise their’s no other choice but to do something about it… but sometimes it’s too late… Because we don’t know when we are going to die and that scares the shit out of us.

We don’t know when we are going to die, do you ever wonder : What if I die tomorrow ? How will I be remembered ? I know because I’m interested in arts and philosophy, that I’m not the only one thinking about that. But How many of my facebook friends actually think of the day they will disappear ? What will their trace on facebook will tell about them when some cyber-archeologists will find the ruins of what was once our civilisation ? What role do they want to have in history ?

In no way, I mean that one has to have ambition. To be honnest, on the contrary of cowardness, I usually despise ambition, it more often than rarely conducts people to climb their way above others and I don’t like vertical relationships. You can absolutely decide for yourself that your ambition in life is to get married, buy a house, make kids and get a dog with a job that simply allows you to afford that way of life, and hope for it to last until you die… Happy ? Fair enough, not very exciting but so be it.

Only, this doesn’t happen, never… N.E.V.E.R and if you disagree, it’s ok, but you’re wrong.

All relationship is conflictual, it’s not only about love relationship, it’s about everything in life. Your relationship with your friends, your colleagues, your teachers and bosses, your parents, of course, you don’t expect the same thing from any of these people, and yes of course, we know all that. But it’s also about our relationship with the world in general. THE U.NI.VER.SE… BOOUUUooouuuhoouuuOOOOUUU…

I think humanity is at the “T” time were it has realised there is a good way, and a bad way to go, definitely, but that the good way is not the one we are fommowing right now. If ever the question of preserving the human species is relevant. We are realising only now, by the mean of science that human is part of nature. That the disparition of our planet, our galaxy, our universe are inevitable. And so is the disparition of human species as we know it either by extermination or by evolution. This is, today, undeniable. It’s gonna happen sooner or later.

It is awkward however, to notice that humanity as a species is not really eager to save itself. The exploitation of the ressources of the planet, and it’s impact on the environment have reached an alarming point, not only for animals and plants but most importantly for humans, you, me, your father and mother, all your friends and all your enemies, everyone you know and everyone you don’t. Without forgetting that the rate of birth is so fast that statistics are announcing a population in 2050 of 9 billions… How can the earth possibly welcome 2.5 billions humans more in 30 years ? We’ll never be ready ! Without forgetting that everyone lives longer and longer. Scientists have recently found a way to produce human organs at will, out of human cells, just like that and soon they’ll fix deceases by simply switching parts of your body like an old car. I’ve posted that document on my facebook wall yesterday, nobody reacted… does it mean that nobody I know realises what it means ?

As I already said, human is a part of nature, everything we see around us is nature, the people, the flowers and the trees, the dogs, the cats and the birds, yes, this is obvious. But also all the buildings, the cars, the roads, the weapons, the books, the planes and the music instruments… all these are natural and the fact that something is “manmaid” makes it nothing less than natural. And before we find out what’s our purpose in life is, we should maybe try to fine tune our behaviors so they fit with what we actually are : A product of the universe and not the owners divinely gifted of the universe.

As everyone knows, there are good and bad people in the world. Which side do you think you are ? If like me you think you’re a good person, really, we therefor value honesty as a vertue and we don’t tolerate lies. If we are good people, we value life and we protect it at all cost without no condition. If we are good people we must have the courage to embrasse human life as what it really is : A sparkle in the universe. A moment. Now.

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Ok, long time without posting anything at all and I really need to kick my own ass so something is done.

Except in some really rare occasions, photography became painful since I started at Bilder Nordic School of Photography. I don’t mind painful creation, I’ve always done that, I’ve been practicing that sport since I’ve started to write lyrics for my bands. It’s always been hard to express myself in a creative way let’s say. So, I don’t mind it really, if only I’m convinved that this pain will serve ME to become better and if I feel like something is gonna come out of that pain.

BUT it is absolutely not the case right now. I couldn’t mesure if ever I’m a better or even just a different photographer than when I started the school and it’s pissing me off. The school is not the only one to blame, I have my part of responsabiliy of course, I’ve always had a very hard time to get up in the morning, and I most definitely have been too lazy at learning Norwegian. But believe me when I say that Bilder Nordic School of Photography has no teaching method what so ever, it litteraly feels like Inge Helland, the director of this school, is improvising himself school director/teacher and that he’s trying very hard to convince every one that he knows what he’s talking about : Photography.

But two things are are very not right :

First, It’s hard to know what this guy’s worth in photography because you can hardly find 10 pictures of his creation on the internet and, if it’s not bad, it didn’t make me a second asshole.

Second, I’d really don’t mind him not knowing shit about photography, if only he knew at least a bit about teaching, education in one word : Pedagogy. He has obviously no fucking clue of what he’s doing. Teaching something like photography is probably something very hard actually, if you ask me… I could never dare to tell someone that I’m gonna teach him or her anything about photography. But I’m guessing that when you pay someone 40000 Norwegian Kroner per semester, to teach you something, you expect him and his crew to be fucking aware of what they are doing.

Let me give you an exemple. I finished the third semester in that school just before christmas and has the tradition wants, me and my fellow students, who are all paying a little fortune to be tested that day, on what we might have learn during this third semester and, more over, during the 1,5 year we’ve been there. Me and my fellow students, was I saying, are seeing ourselves given a sheet of paper with 11 questions about what is creativity ? How does the brain work to be creative ?! and other shit of the same kind. One of the questions pissed me off a bit more than the others when I think about it, it would go like this (Approximately because we had to give the sheet of paper with the questions back, at the end of the exams, god knows why… meaning No fucking one!)

Q : What is a constructive critic ? Imagine a dialog that would represent such a constructiv critic.

WHAT - THE - FUCK ?!

Appart from the fact that I guess most of us probably have an idea of what a constructive critic might be, one could think that you don’t wait one year and a fucking half to explain your students what is a constructive critic and how to recognise it, simply because that’s why one studies photography to learn and get criticized. And if you have a doubt about the ability of your students/customers to take such a critic and turn it into something constructive, then at least, you don’t wait for the end of the cursus to make sure of that. Yeah I know, it’s extremely stupid.

I could also point at the fact that this exam was completely based on a couple of documents my dear Inge Helland sent us by email about a week before the exam. Some PDF files made of photocopies from I don’t know which book (so long for the copyrights) and some method to be more creative of his own confection. I mean, REALLY ? We didn’t learn anything that was worth more than that fucking crap ? This a very sad confession our dear principal just made here.

So, I’m very very pissed off at everyone in that school right now. Because I consider being ripped off, because I consider being taken as an idiot, and because the only thing I learned from Bilder Nordic School of Photography is that one don’t learn how to be creative in a school. But that I already knew.

Now I have about four months left to spend in this establishment… And this might be funny, because now I just said what I think.

Fuck you Bilder Nordic School of Photography